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Crushed
04:32
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this is just a wreck
this is just a big mistake
i might have to find myself again
but i know its much too late
i have been afraid
of things that i don't know
i've been crying for an hour
i really wanna go back home
i wanna make myself believe
that this was just a test
that everything i said and did
only happened in a dream
but i know it's real
i know it's real and that is clear
but maybe you and i
can start our life together
i don't have any words
i'm much too cynical to speak
maybe you can say it first
and give me sweet relief
i've never had this kind of thing
before in all my life
and after everything i know
that i might have to see it die
but i'm gonna hold onto this now
like it's the only thing i've got
because it's the only thing i've got
it's the only thing i've got
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Gone Spirits, Pt. 2
09:39
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i've been slowly losing my patience
i've been patiently awaiting that
cuz i've sewn the seeds
since the last time you checked in
it's been a little bit different
a little bit better you could say
a little bit better
but you don't just recover from a thing like that
and i'm still drowning and i'm still sinking in it
and there's that fucking feeling again, still there, still there
i know if i could i'd wash it all away
i'd wash it all away, i'd wash it all away
would you care if i'm dead
can't help these thoughts spinning over my head
i said would you care if i'm dead
can't help these thoughts spinning over my head
i said would they care if i'm dead
can't help these thoughts spinning over my head
i said would you care if i'm dead
can't help these thoughts spinning over my head
and it's making me ill and it's making me feel
like i can never go back and i can never be healed
cuz every step that i take, another wound is revealed
and every smile i get, i'm gonna doubt if it's real
so would you care if i'm dead
can't help these thoughts spinning over my head
i said would you care if i'm dead
can't help these thoughts spinning over my head
yeah, it's changed a lot
now how the fuck does that feel?
and you can't see me the same way
now how the fuck does that feel?
said that was the end of that
and i'm certain it's a wrap
now i'm certain it's a wrap
and i know there's no going back
but i thought i had a future
i thought i saw the sun
i thought i knew the goddess
but the goddess was no one
there's never that chance to redeem
there's only the life in the wake
and i'm here to find the best in that
but its only a comparative thing
and i'm still searching and i've got a heart to find
but there's that fucking feeling again, still there, still there
i know if i could i'd put my life in your hands
i'd put my life in her hands, i'd put my life in her hands
but i don't trust me quite enough to love me
so i don't think of it and i won't discuss it
cuz i can't allow myself to ever think
that i was ever right in anything i did
or anything i said that might've cut the wrong way
and i can tell i still don't try
i can tell that i still lie
and i can tell i don't act right
but if you want it from me
you're gonna have to take it
because i am who i am and you're not gonna make me regret it
i've found people who i trust in life
i believe in love now, and i see the light
but when the feeling hits, it's like a constant fight
because there's something in me that is dark as night
but it is not an illness, no it is a guest
cuz i remember when i fucking let it in
and gave it shelter from the winter
and shelter from the pain
but if you want it from me
you're gonna have to take it
because i am who i am and you're not gonna make me regret it
everything i ever want to have
this fucking monster rips it from my broken hands
but you son of a bitch, you can't take my love!
no you son of a bitch, you can't take my love!
and if you want it from me
i'm never gonna let you have it
because i'm finally happy with something i've got
and i'm not gonna give it away
not now! not ever!
not now! not ever!
not now! not ever!
not now! not now!
it's feeling like i'm getting torn apart
like something is deep inside me and it wants to burst right out
and i think i'm not strong enough to stop it
but i don't know when and i don't know how
and there's that fucking feeling again, still there, still there
i know if i could i'd let it have its way
i'd let it have its way, i'd let it have its way
but i'm so scared
i know something's in there and i know it's coming
i just don't know when
but it's coming
and it's gonna be loud
it's gonna be loud
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Another Sad Song
04:54
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and now i hope that i don't neglect to mention
before i ever could've started, i didn't beat depression
and i'm trying and i'm trying to make you understand
but it's a false hope if you ain't already there
i swore that this would be the last time i hid
but now i can't bear to see that it is happening again
and though i'd love for you to know and i'd love to say
that i am ready for you now, transmission's on the way
i'm running out of time
to have you on my mind
this signal has to break
it's far too much to take
for all that i am worth
i'm not the only one who's hurt
all else has gone away
now time is ours to waste
i never really thought about this much
i only acted on my instinct and it just was not enough
now i have to take the time to recollect
and i think i'm unprepared for what i know is coming next
cuz this isn't the first time i'm here
i've been scraping at the same damn wall so many years
and if i ever prove to make it all the way
i'll be too overwhelmed to take the sun so i can never say
words are written all along the page
and i could never find the way to make the best of them
far too long and now become erased
i never meant to waste all of the opportunity
all i hope is i can see the day
and i've been searching for it far too many times
i just want these sad songs to go away
i just want these sad, sad songs to go away
i was not ready to be left alone
and i really did not want that part of me to show
this has never been a secret but you've got to know
i never meant to tell the world that i intended to go
but i really needed to vent cuz i really needed a break
and i never got to relax but now i'm starting to think
that if only i had told you where i really was at
we might've found our way out, but it's far too late for that
i'm running out of time
to have you on my mind
this signal has to break
it's far too much to take
for all that i am worth
i'm not the only one who's hurt
all else has gone away
now time is ours to waste
and now i see it all a different way
but it's not possible to write it down and make it all seem sane
and i wonder if it's worth it to regret
because i know that it's not something i am going to accept
cuz this isn't the first time i'm here
i've been scraping at the same damn wall so many years
and if i ever prove to make it all the way
i'll be too overwhelmed to take the sun so i can never say
words are written all along the page
and i could never find the way to make the best of them
far too long and now become erased
i never meant to waste all of the opportunity
all i hope is i can see the day
and i've been searching for it far too many times
i just want these sad songs to go away
i just want these sad, sad songs to go away
don't go away, don't go away
don't go away, don't go away
don't go away, don't go away
don't go away, don't go away
don't go away, don't go away
don't go away, don't go away
don't go away, don't go away
don't go away, don't go away
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Hollow Rings/Distance
03:31
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Geneva on the Lake
05:54
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woke up with a pounding in my head
i don't know what brought me here, but i'd be better dead
everyone in this cold town has a heart made of ice
they've been beaten down by the very same things that i will face in life
you know i used to know you back then, but i sure don't know you now
however the fuck i got here, i've got to get myself out
i've seen all i need to see, i've heard all i need to hear
and i can feel my apocalypse drawing ever near
some time ago i failed to make decisions
and i still am strangled in them, but i don't think you want to know
all you've got to do is buy me the ticket out
and i swear that i'll forgive this once i forget it all back home
you have no place to speak, you don't even know me
and i don't want your help, i don't want your advice
this is all a mistake, i am performing an act
and i should be dead by now
but i am alive
i am alive
i am alive
i am still alive
and you wanted to make me happy, i'm afraid there's no chance of that
i've buried my mind in abstractions and i won't be taking it back
but i am alive
i am alive
as we drive into the country, it's all burned out stars
and we all know i'm dead weight dragging down this car
and i laugh at jokes that i don't even think are funny
i just need to break the tension before my patience can outrun me
you remind me of that time when all my cards were in line
i knocked them out of order and tried to put it out of mind
geneva-on-the-lake, we saw a waterspout on lake erie
and all that chaos, all that fear reminded me
i'm alive
i am alive
i am alive
i am still alive
and i hope that you understood my distance, but if you only knew
that everything's wrong, and there's been times i've thought of killing myself too
but I am alive
i am still alive
and i'm never coming back here
i am never coming back
i see my chance up ahead
i see my chance
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any chance to strike the hammer, they're doing it all for fun
the cops all say to run, the cops all say to run
got 'em all like clay pigeons, to shoot 'em with your guns
the cops all say to run, the cops all say to run
innocence and violence are not too far apart
the hunter and the hunted and the hunter takes the heart
glad you could speak your mind on what you can't relate
you can beat us in the dirt and make us all straight
evil games you seek to play, can't believe you see it that way
spin it, spin it, spin it
all those things i thought i knew now have been confirmed by you
spin it, spin it, spin it
i hadn't thought about this much, didn't notice that your crutch
was leaning on denial, spin it, spin it
you wouldn't want me to call this hate, but i'm not blind to what you say
when you're waiting on the strong arm to make us all straight
just tell me the truth
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8. |
Let's See the City
08:11
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tonight there'll be a show downtown
where we can turn our malaise around
just one more chance to open up
i'll stay true to you if you show up
we'll look so perfect there, we'll stave off all the stares
and just for one more night, we'll have it all, i swear
and gone are my demands
so perfect in this dance
these years have been so hard
so let's take a week to see the stars
let's hide in this room and dance to tunes
that only you and i would get caught dancing to
and let's improve our mood, let's change our attitude
and just for one more night, pretend the world improved
and we'll hold each other so close
i will never let you go
if it all should die tonight
i'll see myself in your golden light
i'll follow you down
i'll follow you down
to where it all will break away
and even on these final days
i'll follow you down
i'll follow you down to the city
yeah, it's been on my mind
how everything we both love will be destroyed
and on that night i won't see you again
but i'm eternally grateful to have been your friend
i'll never love so much as i have loved you now
and just for one more night, we'll feel each other out
all our fears are lifted
all our wrongs forgiven
and i have been so wrong
i want to kill my past as we sing our favorite song
all your doubts and all of mine
will now be lost to the tides of time
and as you're in my arms, we'll never break apart
even for one more night, i'll hold you in my heart
that's all that we have left
it follows us to death
if it all should die tonight
i'll see myself in your golden light
i'll follow you down
i'll follow you down
to where it all will break away
and even on these final days
i'll follow you down
i'll follow you down
we'll make the most of this dying world
we have it all, we can't be deterred
i'll follow you down
i'll follow you down
there's no more time for us to cry
we've got each other and it's alright
i'll follow you down
i'll follow you down to the city
let's see the city at night
before it all burns down
we'll see the city tonight
and we will bring it back
let's sing a glorious song
we'll be where we belong
until the city is gone
let's bring the cities back
let's build it brick by brick
we only have tonight
we've got to make it stick
but if we fail this task
it still can be alright
we've still got you and i
on this final night
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